My Journey So Far

I've been practicing Theistic Satanism off/on for a bit over a year now. It all started when I suddenly got interested in Satanism in general. I started off researching atheistic Satanism but it didn't satisfy the urge I had to learn. Then I began looking for resources on Theistic Satanism. I immediately became overwhelmingly excited the more I learned. Soon after I tried praying for the first time; I had no idea what I was doing but it felt GREAT. Like actually amazing. His presence was a bit overwhelming at first but in a good way. He felt so calm, loving, patient, and understanding. He understood that I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue with this and he was okay with that. After a couple of weeks of being really into it, I stopped practicing and started saying that I was just being "delusional". This is because I was raised by 2 very strong atheists, one of which calls all religious people delusional. I eventually got back into it about 5 months ago and have been relatively consistent since then. I am obviously not very experienced but I have a lot more knowledge than I did in the beginning. This website isn't supposed to be a place where I claim to know everything, but instead to share my journey and what I learn along the way.